I Am
Annie Moonlight


This book begins with a slogan: " I am a Being of Light." Love is the Essence of Life. Love can be true only when it's Unconditional. Only when you lose your mind, you can find your True Self. In this book I wanted to show how a soul can die and rise from her ashes like Phoenix. When you kill your Ego, your real personality, your Spirit comes out. Love yourself first and put yourself in the first place in your life. And only after that you can love someone else as much as you love yourself.





Annie Moonlight

I Am





Don`t Blame Me




Don`t blame me for my love to you,

The choice was not on purpose.

It came to me so unexpectedly, its true

I never listened to its voice.

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Now I have loved and my loves forever,

I realised this too much late.

But please, dont blame me for the things I never

Cant give you well, it maybe helpless fate,



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An accidental word or something more

Your eyes so deep and soft, your smiles so tender.

I gave my loving smile only to you my love!

Andnevergonna smile againand never see your face,no more.



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I see your passion, deeply feel your love,

And very sorry, it will pass for you.

You will forget. My love will grow.

But I must kill this love inside of me, I know.



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Please leave me on my own, leave me my suffering and pain.

Dont try to catch my look, to feel my smile, to see my face.

Dont make me cry, don`t make me be a perjurer in vain.

My love is endless and for real, it is no more a game.



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But still for you it is.

Thats why Im bleeding deep inside.

My honey friend, forget about me, I beg you please.

Dont perish me, dont blame me anyway for me theres no joy and light.

25.09.1996

Annie Moonlight







Another World



Another world begins for me, -

A world of sadness, cruel reality and endless pain.

Those happy years all flew away like a dream

And left my heart in past again.



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But never gonna go back in past again.

Those times of naughty childhood, smiling youth are gone.

My world is strong and not in vain

Ill try to block this pang to go on.



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Another world begins for me

A world without love and care.

Ive lost my everything and now theres no need

To look around and cry for help.

14.10.1996

Annie Moonlight










FOREVER YOUNG




Dedicated to my beloved uncle Farhad









Forever young he was  and so he died,



Forever nice, forever good, forever straight.



Forever proud and so much naive all the time,



Forever smiling, understanding, flying in this cruel world.



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Like butterfly, like little bird  so light and joyful all his life,



But great and noble  just like medieval knight,



Forever young he was with open smile,



With hopeful eyes, with his disinterested heart.



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Forever young, forever tall, forever child,



Forever in the flame, forever martyr, never asking Why?



Forever searching, climbing high,



Forever taking beats from Destiny and never giving cry.



04.11.1996

Annie Moonlight




I Will Survive




Upon your death I swear for this tomb,

Upon your life I swear now, my heart,

Upon my love to you that never was in past,

Upon great heaven now I swear that I will survive.



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I swear no one can break my heart,

I swear I will always smile for you

No tears, no torment, no heartache anymore to start

I must believe in me to go on this time.



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Above me heaven kind and merciful for good,

Beside me people who I love for true,

Inside me fair memories of you,

Outside it may be chilly  but my heart is warm and fair is my soul.



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And no one in this world can make me cry and put me on my knees.

I wont look back, I promise you my dear friend!

And wont cry those bitter tears

I will remember you with smile, with love, without evil,



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I will remember just the way you used to be 

So open hearted, cheerful and good,

The best one I would ever see

The way you loved me simply giving more than one heart could.



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I will remember your sweet face, your proud look

Your clear blue eyes, your pretty smile

And thatll do for me to grow

To raise my eyes, my head, I will survive.

04.11.1996

Annie Moonlight




A Caged Bird




A jolly little bird was flying high

She smiled to everyone and just enjoyed the life.

From time to time she gave a sign

But that was when she had a boring time.



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So time passed by and bird never cried but petty tears,

And never knew what was to grieve for real

A moment came  a moment changing all her life

A man with strong and warm warm arms



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Once set his mind on seizing little bird

So poor little bird gave in without a cry and so easily,

Well, she was happy being so easily captured

And everything was fine for birdie from that time



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Except for freedom that she lost some time

And birdie cried, she cried just only happy tears

And sang for man to make him pleased and ease his life

But caging her he took the key and left one of the nicest days.



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And birdie waited and that waiting cut her like a knife

She waited pending his return and singing day and night her melancholy songs

But poor little thing in vain, in vain expectance was!

Where could she know she cried the tears, the bitterest of all.



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She grieved and grieving was for real

A man had gone. He left for good and now

What did remain to her but cry without any glimpse of hope, and the bitterest appeal?

'Where is my freedom'? Whispered little pet.



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'You lost it willingly. Have you forgotten?' a voice above her said

And she gave up and stopped complaining

When everything was said and done.

She cried all tears out, waited all expecting.



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There's no use in looking forward when all dreams are gone,

And birdie went on sharing her grief with silence

A grief kept grieving at her heart  she suffered asking Why? from time to time.

06.11.1996

Annie Moonlight




BE YOURSELF






Sometimes they say that you are good,



Sometimes they think you're bad, you're cruel,-



Depends on ther relation, their mood.



But be yourself  no change  be who you are.



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And be yourself when you're in trouble,



And be yourself when flying from the joy.



And be yourself in spite of every grumble,



And you will see the light in turn.



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No one would dare take your pride or courage,



No one could ever see the way you feel,



No one could realise your grieve, your joy,



So never worry  be yourself.



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Your wealth and treasure  in your heart,



Just see your soul, see  who you are,



Just learn yourself no finish, no start,



Go on and you will find your star!



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So be yourself in light and darkness,



Be who you are the only one who's true.



Well, be yourself when rain and thunder-



Above your head  and hell is under.



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The only remedy, the only drug for you -



To find your real face  no wearng mask.



You cannot run away from you, -or are you a fool?



Go on  and be yourself and pass this difficult task.

18.08.1997

Annie Moonlight










TheInsight


Let the Light Be!

The Wholy Bible



How can one live in darkness having light?

And feed oneself with hatred and obscurity anddisbelief?

Eternal peaceand rest and insight will fulfil your soul by the time

When you throw off all that cluster of darkthoughts for good, believe!



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Yourepiphany is in the fight with the Unseen and Evil.

Remember: humanpassionsmake themperish all the time.

But Spirit craves not for Vengeance, in Forgiveness its salvation is.

BecauseRevenge will never bringcomfort orpeace to mind.



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And the Revenge will just repeat itself within the circle of low-minded feelings,

And passion cluster! It will drive your soul deep into the corner.

You wont even notice how youve changed and these

Are not the words that rude, oh no, my friend!



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Its all the Heart to blame, that has become so rough like stone,

Eyes full of pride and arrogance!

Oh,how you bemired yourself leaving simplicity behind you soul,

Howwrongyou made to yourself with thiscontempt of yours!



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You try to look prettier and tofurnish nicely home,

But only vivid soul will stay with you!

And God just only cares about salvation of this sacred soul,

And all the prophets for its cleanness warned you!



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Then why to break the rules of Harmony and Nature,

Which even animals will never dare to break?

The truthis thatin this worldthere's nomoreevilcreature

Than a human being.



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Then why tosew evil  doing evil to yourself

While even little mindless creatures live happily on earth?

And losing yourself in this fiery desert,

Keep bringing onlyflaws to it, instead of Dream, forsooth!



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And the strongest is the one whohad enduredall hurricanes of Life

Andquenchedhis thirsty Spirit the same time.

The strongests not the one who lost his power in the battle of Life,

And lost his faith, having become rude, senseless, tough.



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And having turned out to be a false substitute of human,

Cold to the pain and suffering of others

And being not capable to love  only to hate, to scorn!

And beggar in the soul, still being hungry for love, for tenderness.



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Oh no, not the one is strong whos knocked down by the obstacles of life

And changed his love and faith for emptypassions,

Buried his hope inwaterdeep inside

And lost his face, his souls wealth.

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Who changed his heart for arrogance and pride,

Forgot his sins and blamed the ones beside.

While his soul was the throne of ignorance and hypocrisy, lie

But he did not behold the flaws of own heart.



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And only the one who took all challenges of Life

With no fear and was wounded many times

And still survived with heart of fire and with faithful heart

Can stand up tall and strong inside.



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Whose soul became so wide and open that

Could embrace all loving that the life would bring.

His heart is generousand simple like a child.

Theres no place for envy or forjealousy in it.



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No mustyhypocrisy orlofty pride can findthereplace,

But onlybetrayalcan break a heart of brave!

This heart will never understand it why it happened to them,

But still will fly on soothing his spirit with a pray.



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Pray is a food for Soul,

The flesh isfeeble but theSpiritis free.

And only when faith is strong and firm

Bright is the mind and high is the flight  then one can break all chains inside of him.

12.09.2000

Annie Moonlight










In Stead of Thee

(Adieu to Love)




In stead of thee* thy* face, thy smile, thine eyes, -

Imagination that creates the while*

Orb of a tear* would have cleared my mind,

Thou wert* a phantom all this time.



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And now  what I have instead of thee?

The shade* that hid us from the pain,

Your vestiges* that stil alive on it,

Some pictures  yet I see again.



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Fain would I give my heart for love!

What will you say if I come through*?

How can one blame m efor this soul?

May you forget this all  for good?



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By now  in stead of thee  thy vows* that you broke,

Thy words  you would deny ere they were told,

This couch of pain* and so much more 

All of the feelings I review alone.



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Vale*, my friend, fruitless dream,

Theres nothing else to say or do,

Behold*, the martlet* in the sky may grieve,

As pallid* Dove of Hope flew to the Realm* of Memories so soon.



21.11.2000

Annie Moonlight



Thee (old English)  you

Thy  your

The while  all the time

Orb of a tear  tear

Would  used to

Wert  form of the verb to be

Shade  shelter

Vestige  a trace

Picture  here: photo

Fain would I  I would willingly

Come through  confess

Vow  oath

Ere  before

Couch of pain  bed of sufferings

Review  here: remember

Vale (veili)  forgive and good-bye

Behold  look, see

Martlet  swallow

Pallid Dove  pale-to-death dove




I called you my best friend


Man proposes, God disposes.

The Proverb



I called you my best friend,

Put in you my trust.

I would never change it 

For all this worlds wealth.



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I used to believe you,

It would be so good.



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We two had no secrets.




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